"Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous."
This is the perfect thing to hear at a perfect time of life. I'm 20 years now, I'm studying-funnily- something I've wished for when I was 9 years old, and forgot about when I was 12. For the past 4 years I somehow felt like Carrie Bradshaw herself. I had the friends, I had the clothes, I had the make-up, the knowledge about fashion and last but not least I had the men. The many, different, lovely, gorgeous, not so gorgeous, funny, nice and interesting men. Every single one of them made me to what I am today. I needed those experiences to find what I was looking for for so long, but what was in front of me all this time. Something so familiar something I haven't considered all along, that it seems even weird for me ending up with it. So here I am, done with watching SATC all over again, looking at my life from the Carrie perspective. No matter how young I am, I feel like I need to fight for what I really want. I always had the feeling I had to do so. To fight. Love never came easy, it never just fulfilled itself before my eyes and let me just lean back and watch it blossom. So I fought year after year after year to finally surrender to someone so beautiful, gorgeous, funny, lovely, sexy and sweet. Someone who fills every box in my checklist for men.
So this is basically what it comes down to. Me and someone else and now, that I'm quiet and not sobbing over lovestories anymore I can suit up, grow some balls and fight for something else for once. For the life I've always imagined I would eventually have. This is me fighting for a career, for a job, for journeys, for being myself and for letting everyone know, that it's fine being who you are. Because in the end the only single thing everyone was born to do is being yourself.
